Saturn has been transiting my first house since September 2009, and according to cafe Astrology and others this is a great time to deal with one’s physical body, ie get in shape, be healthy, quit eating chocolate covered butter, etc.  And so it was.  I just got a job at a horse barn in Los Angeles, where everyone was super healthy.  In addition to riding and working, I studied Pilates three times a week, and not just any Pilates, but Fletcher Pilates, which is super Saturnian.  I felt strong and solid (although still shaky in the self esteem area) and then Saturn hit the land mine in my first house, Pluto.

Naively I had predicted that Saturn would whip my Pluto into shape, who has always worked a bit like a bull in a china shop, as in, “Hi, what about me, isn’t this awkward?”  Saturn was going to put an end to all that, he was going to put a bow on Pluto and make her socially presentable.

No, of course it didn’t happen. Instead I got pregnant that day and was immediately infused with the I don’t give a fuck hormone that took me off the horse and onto the couch. By the end of it I think I gained over 65 pounds. I have a beautiful amazing baby now, which is awesome, but I have absolutely no healthy relationship to my body.

Now, I don’t want to go back to working out just to please society and attempt to gain some superficial self esteem, but can we get Saturn and Pluto working together somehow and develop some sort of solid, healthy physical routine and attitude before Saturn leaves my first house?  Please? Any ideas?